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Mar 10, 2004
I just deleted a whole entry that was in full details. Lets try this again.
Crazy times with crazy ppl.
Maegan came to get me around 15 till 4 for softball. Yesterday after softball a gang of us decided to go to Dinos. Practice ended and i went with marissa to her house and waited for the other to gather there. They shortly came and we left marissas. It was me marissa sarah and steph in stephs car and then nina shane and maegan in maegans car. We get down there and they told me to go in and put my name on the list cuz it was packed. I got distrated cuz i saw Alan and talked to him for awhile. Its been a long time, since the last show. Well i went back out and they asked me how long it would be and i said Alan says around an hour to 45 minutes. They were like did the lady tell u that and im like no i didnt tell her my name. So they sent me back in to give them my name. I then talked to Alan for a bit more. Shorty after that the lady came out looking for a group and they mustve left. so i go "Dana of 7 will take that place" she then walked back in and walked back out and goes "Dana of 7" haha. We got in before Alan and he was there before us. Keep in mind we all had softball clothes and sweats and such and everyone else looked nice. wow. I didnt get home till about 9ish.
So they found out my phobia. One of my many.
Meg803: ur goin to open ur locker one day and there will be bottles of ketchup in it
And ive been threatened by many to try out for varsity.
Meg803: if u dont try out for varsity i will never talk to u again
Meg803: serious face
haha
Today i have softball right after school from 2.30 till 4.15. Fun.
That was my day basically but funnier in real life.
Hey Phil! Just wanted to say hey. I know ur reading this. Good thing im not school. Id be torchered. Big words.
Bye
Posted at 05:58 am by 4grlchaos
Mar 9, 2004
If i traded it all away for once thing, wouldnt that be something.
SARAH!
that seems to be the one word for making me happy during school, "Prison". *And when im thinking about him*. But i cant seem to be happy unless shes there to make me happy. She just keeps me going when im down and everything. Shes turned out to be one of my best friends, yes this girl that i wouldve never pictured myself hanging out with.
Once again its 5'50ish in the morning. I actually did my hair and got ready. Im not dressed yet but i did flip my hair out. It looks wicked cute. haha.
I had softball yesterday from 5'15 till 7'15. I came home after school and then Maegan came and got me quarter till. We talked about her lovely weekend. haha. Practice was good. Not bad. Ive improved and im feeling confident for a spot on varsity. (or at least im hoping).
Practice ended and Maegans screaming my name down the hall looking for me. Haha. Meanwhile im walking to her car talking to Sarah.
I come home, get a shower, then my brother (who did not fall asleep in the process, phil) calls and says hes bringing mark and zack over after bowling. About a half an hour later they arrived and played Halo. Mark and Zack played me once so they could feel superior beating me. haha. Then i pulled out my great acoustic for Mark to play. He taught me something. Now whether i remember it or not is the question. I love when people play acoustic its amazing. Someday im gonna get Phil to play drums or bass just for me. I dont know if he plays guitar or acoustic. But if he does. Hes playing acoustic.
I have a Physics test today. Which i know none of. This should be fun.
I have Pre Cal homework to do still. Psh!
Im getting sick i keep coughing. I cant get sick for friday.
Speaking of Friday, i am wicked excited due to the fact that our softball schedule was changed and we now practice EARLY and got off an hour EARLIER.
Im addicted to you.
So Alissa pulled me over in the halls and told me she had to tell me something. So i got all nervous and kept thinking it was something bad. But it wasnt. It didnt have to do with me. But i care, so i helped her out.
Last night i was talking to Kristin and she was saying she loves me more than Jaclyn.
banginbutterfly4: I LOVE YOU JUST AS MUCH IF NOT MORE AS JACCI DOES
banginbutterfly4: I LOVE U IN ALL UR SEXYNESS!
Haha. Its nice to have people fight over me.
And yes i gained two really close friends that use to wanna kill me. All because of a misunderstanding and we realized it wasnt worth it. Cuz Steve told them lies about me. EF HIM! And once they talked to me themselves, they realized im nice. Cuz i am.
But now i got to go and wake my brother up for school. Yes i have to wake the OLDER brother up. What a loser.
*I love Jaclyn Broyles.*
Posted at 06:06 am by 4grlchaos
Mar 8, 2004
Only wanting to talk to u
Its 6 AM and im getting ready for school...
I dont want to go. I woke up this morning thinking "i have to make it through two different days of double period physics to get to friday"
I dont wanna.
I cant wait for friday. Im excited.
Phil i wanna talk to u. But since our schedules are different this week i prolly wont get to talk to u till wednesday if im lucky.
I dont know.
But im leaving. Chances are i will come home right after school since its raining, and ill have softball once again from 5 to 7...so i guess ill talk to u then.
Posted at 06:18 am by 4grlchaos
Mar 7, 2004
Different thoughts put together on one paper.
Today was a waste of a day.
I have a feeling im not gonna be able to sleep well tonite. I may go to bed early and wake up at about 11ish. If u are reading this please get on around 11. And keep me company, if im up. It may be a bit after 11.
I have time to spare so this may be long and pointless.
Im watching the Full House marathon. Its starring Steve <3<3.
I love how rumors start. I mention someones name, so you tell her something about him, she tells him what i "said", and he confronts me.
I guess u wont understand that.
Even if they rumor was true. But you didnt tell them that.
I wish they would stay out of my life and let me do what i want. And be with who i want.
Jaclyn loves me. I love her. We love each other.
Jaclyn u make me feel so wanted when i see that on all of ur away messages.
Today was another day spent drowning myself in boredom not wanting to go anywhere.
For some reason i hate Sundays. Is that normal? well i hate them.
Phil sorry i didnt answer u earlier when u were saying bye cuz u were going to get kevin. I was away watching Full House and didnt realize u were IMing me.
I want to watch Peter Pan. The real first original Peter Pan. I want Peter to come to my windowsill and take me away. I want to be a kid forever. I never want to grow up. I want to enjoy life with certain people. I want to fly to Neverland.
Come take me away tonite Peter.
The gum im chewing right now is so immaculately hard. It hurts my jaw.
I want her to come back on line. We have some straightening out to do.
Its weird how he still had a dream about me last nite. Even tho its been how long since we stopped talking. Good thing he woke up, i dont wanna know what all happened. Ugh!
And it doesnt bother me that i now have u blocked on my buddy list. Or wait maybe i just deleted ur name. I think i deleted ur name. It is a feeling of such great relief. I dont care. Just stay out of my personal life now and let me be happy for once.
Norman Mailer was never married to Marylin Monroe.
I need to talk to u. U are MY drug.
So i bet u dont know who is the voice of Aladdin?
Scott Weinger
Still dont know who im talking about.
Steve from Full House. DJ's boyfriend.
Yep
If you were in love. And the person u were in love with got a job offer they have wanted since they were young in New York. And u lived in San Fransisco, would u just let them go and neither of u wanted to give up what they have where they were. I believe if it were true love. Someone would have changed their life to be with the one they love.
I wonder why me and Phil McCuen dont talk anymore? Its sad actually.
Me and my Jesse Martino cant even hold a conversation anymore. It makes me so sad. I use to spend countless nights staying up talking to this kid. Countless. Jesse u knew everything about me and i knew everything about u. U were just my best friend. Best friends means i pulled the trigger. Best friends mean u get what u deserve.
So i was eating Frosted Mini Wheats the other day and there were two stuck together. The first thing i thought of was the song lyrics "If we go down we go down together" By TBS. Two best friends/lovers is all i could think of. Emo. I know.
So has this entry made u depressed. Or made u think i am depressed. Im not really.
I love softball to death but its starting to make me mad. Listen to this... So us softball players have to share the gym with three different activities, And if its not nice outside we have practice at different times. For the next two fridays, we have practice from 5 till 7ish. Well this next friday me and phil are doing something. And if its not nice out i wont get home till 7 something. Which gives us less time. But if its nice out we have practice right after school outside and its all good. And the Friday after that, there is a show and Kaleigh wants me to go. Well that may not work out due to the fact that i have softball from 5 till 7ish once again. UNLESS its nice. Lets pray for warm weather.
Anyways i watched The Emperors New Groove today too. But it still doesnt compare to Peter Pan. I watched some Fuse, the had Blink 182 loaded on there. So yeah.
Im talking to Sarah. I miss her like my hands miss my mittens. She hasnt been in school for the past two days and i need her. She is like the air i breath. She keeps me going in class. Shes like that girl that i wouldve never pictured myself being friends with but yet somehow she turned out to be a good friend.
Mark is very comforting at times. He can be a sweet kid, once u get past the weird things about him. But we are all weird in our own ways.
Do ur toes ever get jealous of ur fingers?! Think about it. Honestly. Toes are usually stuck in shoes or socks all day long, or for most of the day. While fingers are out in the open and free to move around and do whatever they want. They can point, type, move, be free. Im prolly the only one who ever thinks about this stuff.
simplyOimperfect: my toes are jealous of my fingers
Sarer1286: whys that
simplyOimperfect: cuz fingers get to move and be free while toes are stuck in shoes or socks all days.
Sarer1286: take ur socks off
simplyOimperfect: but then my toes are just on the ground or wahtever and my hands get to see the world.
Sarer1286: lol ur weird
AuntLouisFCRobot: but toes are warm
AuntLouisFCRobot: fingers arent
simplyOimperfect: but fingers get to see the world
AuntLouisFCRobot: toes get to explore the ground
simplyOimperfect: which makes them sad
AuntLouisFCRobot: they get to feel soft grass
AuntLouisFCRobot: and warm slippers
AuntLouisFCRobot: and smooth socks
simplyOimperfect: but they dont get to see anyhting
AuntLouisFCRobot: hands have to do all the work
simplyOimperfect: but they get to see everything they are doing
AuntLouisFCRobot: they dont see!
AuntLouisFCRobot: they dont got eyes
simplyOimperfect: but they can see
Some weird things most people dont know about me.
1. My teeth itch. *so do sarahs so im not that weird*
2. Im terrified of the wind. I cant go out when its windy. Or ill cry.
3. I have an obsession with hands. particularly guys hands.
4. I have a terrible fear of Ketchup. Once at lunch they stuck Ketchup on me and i cried for about 3 class periods straight.
5. I laugh over nothing sometimes.
Im done with the weirdness.
I think im done cuz ive been writing in here since 4. Of course not straight. But thats when i started.
I'Il be waiting for Peter Pan
tonite. Or will u come
and get me instead.
*winkwink*
I love Jaclyn.
Posted at 06:21 pm by 4grlchaos
Girlfriend in a coma i know i know its serious.
Its 12'30 and im tired already.
Phil went somwhere in Pittsburgh today so i didnt get to talk to him.
Me and my sister went for a walk today. It was fun.
Im watching Shrek.
There is an AWESOME band coming to Pittsburgh soon. But i wont tell you who.
Phils taking me. <3
If
I
could
tell
you
one
thing
I'd
probably
say
that
you've
been
on
my
mind.
Thats for you sweetie.
I think im done. I think im going to bed.
Night Neverland.
*winkwink*
Posted at 12:24 am by 4grlchaos
Mar 5, 2004
There's nothing to you, you conjure lies.
I updated in school but the computer decided not to work.
I told about everyone in the class i was in.
So ill do it again.
Who cares if they read this and get mad.
Sarah wasnt there. Shes my favorite.
Alyssa actually was doing her work. Shes my second favorite. *opps* haha
Anthonys in there. He can be two faced sometimes. He will talk bout you to her and her to you. I hate it.
Timmy was listening to music the whole time and being crazy.
Cara ended up making me mad. She was writing in her "blogdrive" cuz i was writing in mine. All of a sudden she has an interest in the music i like. When usually she listens to country, or oldies, or not what i listen to. Dont get me wrong shes cool. But thats annoying.
Theres this girl in there i hate. Is it sad i dont even know her name? Oh well i know how she acts.
I dont even remember who else is in that class...losers.
I dont think i mentioned this but me and Chelsea went to go and see Passion Wednesday. It was good. The whole time the only thing i could think of was WHY? I didnt see to understand how someone could do that to someone else. And either laugh or have it not bother them. They had His blood on them and they laughed. Thats wrong.
Anyways. I have so much music on my computer, but i cant seem to think of what to listen to.
Midtown. not bad.
I guess when im happy it makes people sad. But yet they hate it when im depressed. What do they want? Theyd rather hear me sad i bet. Im always hyper and happy and some tell me i need to stop being so happy. Well today i was in a good mood but just didnt talk to anyone really. And everyone was like "i dont like you like this" haha and all i could say is "then what do u want" or i would say "die". Its cool.
Softball was fun today! I love that kind of stuff. Yay! Maegan brought me home today. Shes awesome.
I need someone to talk to. Maybe Phil will get on. But hes prolly at work. Ohh well. *sigh*
Bye
Jaclyn i love you.
Posted at 09:42 pm by 4grlchaos
Mar 4, 2004
I woke up the rain was pouring down.
Woot Woot.
Greetings my fellow friends and simple minded foes.
I just finished burning 30 cds. The exact number.
I have this obsession with cds. My friends know about that.
For once i dont know what to say.
Softball today was fun. Sarah wasnt there. I did good. I did good yesterday too. I like pushing myself. I love running. And doing sit ups, crunches, jumprope, sprints, different exercises, and wall sits. I love that kind of stuff. sure at the time sometimes it seems hard. But once ur done u get a great feeling if u pushed urself. Amazing.
Yesterday after conditioning, Me and Sarah even stayed after and ran more laps. It was fun.
I love feeling in shape.
My sister just screamed at me cuz shes cool like that. That crap makes me wanna go punch that nosy posing brat.
So wheres Phil? Prolly working, cuz hes cool like that. [insertsmilingface] At least he has a car and money. Phil i want to learn how to talk like u. Like word wise. <3 haha.
Living
Well
Is
The
Best
Revenge!!!!!!!!
So true.
So i havent decided for sure whether to try out for Varsity or just stay on JV for fun. Marissa says if i dont try out for Varsity she will hurt me. Since she says i couldve made it last year. But i didnt want to. So i didnt try.
Matt likes my establishment i have here.
You are just about the lamest they come.
banginbutterfly4 (7:50:37 PM):
I LOVE U MORE THAN JACCI
DOES!
She makes me feel amazing.
banginbutterfly4 (7:51:19 PM): ********* rocks!
Its sad when i have to bleep out a bands name in fear that u will steal them from me.
Auto response from babyj4 29 87 (8:01:57 PM):*!Dana I love u!*
Plus some more
So i just found out that the Pirates traded Pokey Reese. I now have no reason for living. Pokey was my favorite and plays the same base as me....second for all you fools who dont know that. I was suppose to go to a Pirates game last season but i had a prior commitment to go to a show. So i missed seeing
POKEY REESE play.
Upsetting i know.
I've just depressed myself i think its time for me to go.
Posted at 08:02 pm by 4grlchaos
Mar 2, 2004
The Clowns at the CirCus scare me.
Ive been trying to post an entry since saturday night. Hopefully it will work this time.
I hung out with Phil all day Saturday. Heres how it went.
After some calls and plan arrangements Phil called and came to get me at about 1ish.
We went and saw "club Dread" at the movie theaters. (Not a recommended movie)
Then we went to Starbucks, sat and talked for awhile. I always <3 talking.
Then we decided to stop by the mall and see Kevin at work. He works at Chick Fi La.
Talked to Kevin for a bit and then walked around the mall.
We were in Kaufmans for about an hour looking for this one type of pillow.
It stretches or so Phil says.
So then we left the mall and rode around in the van for bit.
We eventually ended back at his house and played Tony Hawk.
And talked.
Then Kevin called and we went to pick him up around 7.30 ish.
We picked him up.
Phil went inside and waited for Kevin a bit and i stayed in the car and listened to the Zealots.
and they were on their way to bring me home.
About half way here the muffler of Phils van got a hole in it or something.
So we drove back to Phils house got some Jones's.
And was gonna take the white car.
But it wasnt home, both of his parents were gone.
So the only car left to take was the Mercades Benz.
And we took it.
Kevin was convinced we would get in trouble.
And Phil said no way they knew he had to take me home.
Turns out he didnt get in trouble. Thank god.
I finally arrived home around 9ish and Phil came in to ask for directions.
That was my full Saturday.
I had a blast.
So then, Sunday.
I went to church and Phil showed up. He sat beside me. <3
Thats all i did Sunday.
Yesterday was Monday and the first day of softball conditioning.
It was okay i guess. Not as rough as last year. But rough if ur not in shape.
Me and Sarah stuck together the whole time cuz i love her.
Then when practice was done Sarah brought me home. <3
Today is Tuesday at 5.45 in the morning. I have softball and then straight from softball my mom is picking me up so i can go see my sisters volleyball game.
Tomorrow is Wednesday and im staying for softball. Then Sarah is bringing me home when its over prolly around 4.00ish. Then im getting a shower and Chelseas coming to get me and we are gonna go see Passion. It should be a fun time. I hear to bring Kleenex's. Dont worry i will.
Now im sitting here wondering what the rest of the week may hold for me.
Ohh and i guess if you hate me the now cool thing to do is read this. Its alright. I prolly dont like you either. So why dont you just erase this site from your favorites and forget i ever lived. And i will do the same about you.
This morning my stomache is a bit sore from softball but other than that i am normal. I didnt flip my hair out cuz i didnt feel like it. I just got a shower and dryed it. I have no one to impress at my school.
Ohh yeah yesterday was Amandas birthday. Happy Birthday Sweetie!!
So i think i am gonna go and get ready for school the rest of the way.
Ohh and by the way, The Zealots rock my world.
Posted at 06:02 am by 4grlchaos
Feb 25, 2004
He was killed by a cellular phone explosion
So i just finished my last PSSA writing section. Clayton is beside me sleeping. And Jenn <3 is on the other side. She just finished.
So i guess im retarded. Thanks "ah ha ah ha ah ha"
It means alot coming from u.
I think i have a hint to as of who u r. If u dont like what u write. DONT COME HERE. Its that simple.
But please grow up, post on ur real name and then die.
Save the world.
Anyways.
My internet at home will be down for a few days. Im on the school computer right now. So if u wanna talk u gotta call.
Kaleigh if my internet isnt back up by this weekend call me and let me know whats going on. I know u wont let me down.
Phil, i miss u. Just call if u wanna do something soon or just wanna talk.
Nick Petruska. My sister said u called last nite. Sorry i went to bed at like 7. I was bored. Call today.
7248728734
So Mark is a cool kid. I would just like to add that. We had an intellectual conversation today. He's also gonna take me on a date. HAHAHA.
I know the first ten digits of pi. 3.141592654.
Anyone know where i can get the first 100 digits. I swear im gonna learn them ALL.
My eyes are feeling heavy but they never seem to close
The fanblades on the ceiling spin but the air is never cold.
Even tho ur next to me i still feel so alone
I just cant give u anything for u to call ur own.
Ahh Yellowcard. Hott m-effers.
So i took a familiar walk
Got that familiar boy
But its not the perfect walk
And its never the perfect boy.
Daddys little boy and i think hes so fine
Im not giving up till he is mine
Ya i wanna be his girl
I want him to by my guy
cuz since i met him ive been in another world.
He was killed by a cellular phone explosion
They scattered his ashes across the ocean
The water was used to make baby lotion
The wheels of commotion
Where set into motion.
Anyone know who sings that^? Bet not.
Halo i NEED Halo.
Im turning into a gamer nerd. Its sad when ppl ask me to do something and i go "No i am playing Halo" or "no im going to a Halo party"
I miss my Valentine. Kaleigh.
Posted at 09:01 am by 4grlchaos
Feb 24, 2004
I want u. I need u. I beg u. I love u.
Im sitting here & i just got done taking my PSSA for the second day in a row.
I am bored out of my mind and tried to send IMs to peoples phone but i dont know if it worked or not.
So i may go to the meeting at Steph's house later tonight. If i can find a ride, I can go. Maybe Phil will go.
I looked AdOrAbLe for school today. I didnt realize it was snowing outside which led me to now, looking normal. I was upset. I shouldve taken a picture before I left this morning. It was CuTe.
Yeah, I, Dana Ellsworth wore a skirt to school today.
This keyboard is loud in a quite room. Some others are on the computer. Clayton is sitting beside me BUT hes not on the computer. Weirdo. Hes bored. Im bored. We are all bored.
So we have two periods each day to write one paper thingy. It only takes me one period to write it. So i have a full period to jack around.
So may i add Mark has blackmail on me. I skipped SAT Prep yesterday and went somewhere with Casey. Oh well. Who needs SAT Prep?!? ME!!!!! Casey and I had fun so it was cool.
I better go. I may edit later. This will prolly be plain.
Before i leave may i add.
PHIL U R HOTT
Posted at 08:56 am by 4grlchaos
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